Where It All Started

Today God made my heart flutter and it really scares me. I think I know what I'm supposed to do this summer. Stefan sent me an email about some friends who do missions work in Africa. When I read it, my heart immediately felt the weirdest feeling of a mixture of fear and completion and joy and disappointment. Let me explain. There are 3 trips to Africa. One is for 2 weeks, one is a summer internship, and the other is a year long internship. I feel like I'm supposed to do the summer one. The fact that I would be gone for over a month in Africa with people I don't know, that's the fear part. The completion part is that I finally feel like this is either close or exactly what God wants me to do. I feel joy because I have that completion and I really like feeling God tug my heart. It just warms me up. But I feel a lot of disappointment because the dates of the internship are June 16 - August 8. For like the first time in my life I would miss family camp. On Tuesday I prayed with Amilyn and one of my prayers was that God would reveal to me what I am supposed do and that if it was during family camp, that He would give me the peace to be able to follow Him, even if it meant giving that up. The trip is $3,850 plus the cost of preparations and hopefully a little spending money, but I feel a lot like God wants this for me. I know the missions work would stretch me but it would be just right for me. We'd even get to go on a safari!!

Here is the link in case you guys want to know more about the possibility of my life this summer:
http://www.thriveafrica.org/getinvolved/summerinternship/